yeah so i WAS lowra on devART, but i believe my password does not work anymore. So i have decided to start a new account here for moments when i'm feeling poetic. Unfortunately, that has not been happening a whole lot lately...life gets in the way ladeeeda...but i kinda miss the community here so yay i'm back.

i've been up all night, by the way...i'm surprised i'm coherent right now. haha...so yeah, my first year of college has ended. I don't want to go home, but at the same time i do. i love being here with everyone, but there are certain people that i miss at home too...a lot. i also miss my bed at home. although, i know that once i'm there for a little while, i'm going to miss it here. i'm going to miss my friends and the feeling of always having something to do with someone at any given time. i'm going to miss my roomie and her craziness and i'm going to miss knowing there will always be someone there for me right down the hall or up the stairs.

But i guess going home will have its good points too. my friends there are wonderful as well, but i feel as if the really good friends i have at home are few. thats the thing about college...you find out who your real friends are..the ones who miss you when something funny happens or when they need someone to talk to.

This has been one crazy year...but i've loved both the good and the bad. there may be some things i regret or that i wish i could change, but i guess i have to go with the philosophy that things happen for a reason. the strange thing is that the one relationship i have that has been my most difficult throughout this entire year, is the one that i cant let go of. And i don't know what to do...